A MESSAGE FROM SCRUFFY
God please let my mommy know that I am thankful for her help in making my
transition. It was very peaceful and I am glad she held me in her arms as I
crossed over. I love her and had a wonderful life with her.
When I started to
get sick she took very good care of me but my body was just too old to keep
going. She did everything she could to help me. She bought my favorite food with
the juice, which I really liked. Even though I was supposed to be on a special
diet. I quit eating because I just didn’t have an appetite any longer so I liked
the juice in that food.
And no mommy, there’s no way you could’ve gotten me to
eat so don’t even ask yourself that. I was very unhappy lately because I could
not see and had no energy to move. I was just existing, not living. I would just
wander around a small area in the house and would pee anyplace because I didn’t
know where to go. I’m sorry mommy for doing that. She never got mad at me
though. I’m sorry I withdrew from you and kept to myself.
I was trying to tell
you it was time. I couldn’t make the transition myself because I just didn’t
think you were ready for it. Your helping me was very unselfish, you put my
needs before yours.
I’m in a much better place now where my spirit is free of my
physical body. I’m there with you mommy and will continue to be your buddy and
angel in life. Don’t be sad and don’t feel guilty and don’t doubt your decision.
I know you have trouble sometimes and your thoughts get the best of you. The vet
did everything he could, you did everything you could.
We shared quality time,
although I know you are thinking back wondering if we spent enough, and your
decision to help me make my transition was absolutely the right one. If you
would’ve waited longer I would’ve just gotten sicker and would’ve been in more
pain and may have possibly gone while you were not there. You did the right
thing and you did it because you loved me so much. You didn’t want to see me in
pain any longer.
Thank you for everything you did for me over the last 17 years.
Always remember the good times we had together when I was so full of life and my
body was healthy. Remember when I used to come to bed and pester you to pet me
while you were sleeping and you would hide your hands. Remember when you would
call me and I would run into the bedroom to be with you. Remember when we used
to play “hand”. Sometimes I would want to play so you would stop what you were
doing and lie on the bed with me. Thank you for sleeping on the floor next to me
the last two nights. I may not have appeared to like it but I did. I just didn’t
want you to see me this way so I kept a bit distant. So please mommy, please
stop crying and go on with your life. I am still there and will guide you the
whole time.
I’m happy here with Buttons, Squeaky, Muffin, Buster and Tinker. We
are all having a ball and without our physical bodies we can do anything we
want. Mommy, stop crying, stop thinking of me and driving yourself crazy. I know
you love me and will never forget me but you don’t have to always think about
me. Go on with your life and live each day to the fullest. You know what you
need to do so go do it! I give you strength in everything you do. You are such a
beautiful person mommy and have everything you need to get what you want in
life. Just remember, your life is great right now, just the way it is! Your
happiness comes from inside, quit looking for it on the outside. You were the
best mommy ever!! I love you mommy!
May 8, 2003
A Message from Mandi
In Memory of Mandi
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